4.12.2010

epiphany


you know what i realized today?

I met a very dapper, intellectual, articulated, opinionated, humble, polite boy today. or I should say, young man. and as I was sitting there, just introducing myself, I realized just how refreshing it is to talk to a guy that's not in music.

like. oh my goodness. It was so incredibly nice to talk to him! He was in band in high school. and truthfully, that's all I need. He had a strong enough understanding of where I come from, as far as band goes, that he could understand my passion, and share in that. But, I can't handle a music major! Most of my friends HAVE to date a music major. or band director, or something. like Chandra. They have to be super musical for her to be attracted to them. And I understand that, but it's not for me. I need someone with different interests than me, although, mine are so broad that they will often overlap. but their whole life can't be music, you know? That's just my preference and stuff.

I feel like it's so much more interesting to exchange expertise and knowledge with someone, and teach them something - rather than argue the deep meaning of some obscure fact within our otherwise common field. People love to talk about themselves anyway... it might as well be something that you don't fully understand - or even remotely understand! Maybe that's why, today, I felt less intimidated. Like i could hold my ground. If not in the middle of a discussion about politics and media bias, later, when we talked about music composition. I usually feel super out of place, or flat out intimidated by someone so intelligent and articulate. I often end up conforming my opinions to theirs, so that they like me. But not today. Not anymore. I figured out the secret. :)

sigh. I feel myself growing up.

win.